We might use language in our attempts to set boundaries, but language contains in microcosmic acts the macrocosmic thrust toward new form.
November 4, 2006
The trail into the canyon is rougher at Novemberâ€™s threshold; run-off from recent storms took the same trail to the canyonâ€™s main water course that I must take. Old gullies have been deepened; new ones have formed, running ragged. In places, I consult the deer, reading their tracks for the best paths around obstacles. Like the water and I, deer seek paths of least resistance.
In the canyon bottom, the cottonwood leavesâ€“those that remain on the treesâ€”their gold scaleâ€™s gone to brown scrap. But even these bones of leaves, thin and crisp as birdsâ€™ bones, clitter a few last water words.
Some lizards skitter on the warmer slopes, no doubt keeping very short hours.
As I climb out of the canyon, I stop to sit on a rock outcrop and take in the view. Sudden liquid laughter erupts from the creek below. Behind me, the spring claps. As quickly as the voices surge, they hush. Itâ€™s as if a sudden lift of water swelled from the earth then sank back in a kind of hydro-sigh. Autumn having borne off hordes of leaves, the water in the canyon can now outshine the trees.
Finally, a golden eagle flying like an arrow shot from a bow of strong intent, someoneâ€™s life clutched in its talonsâ€”canâ€™t tell what itâ€™s got. Only that its tail streams out behind, flapping in the wind like a flag of surrender.
December 13, 2006
Down at the beaver dams some ice has melted, but whatâ€™s left forces the water through narrow channels forming at puckers in each damâ€™s lip. This cranks up the volume on the canyonâ€™s water soundtrack. I think, â€œ________ Creek is running like an engine, or like a long, liquid machine thatâ€™s running on a series of engines. The beavers have changed how the canyon sounds.â€
A duck just soared past me, heading down canyon. I heard it before I saw it, a sound like a miniature jet. Thought I was hearing the stoop of a hawk.
Today, I discover that the juncos make a different sound when they encounter me from the sound they make when they encounter a hawk. When I meet them, they pip nervously and flit to a safe difference. Today, I heard them pipping a short ways off. Then I startled a hawkâ€”couldnâ€™t see what kindâ€”that had been standing on the trail. In fleeing me, the hawk winged right through the flock of juncos, who screamed â€œTwit twit twit twit twit!â€ in terror. It sounded as if someone had â€œgiven the harness bells a shake,â€ except for the added pitch of fear. It was a noise of terror, but it broke the air in peals of beautiful music.
January 8, 2007
This morning as I descend the trail into __________, I hear a sharp keening. I think it might be a fox or some other canine barking, but then I hear distinct bird notes. Some large raptor, possibly an eagle. Iâ€™ve seen golden eagles down here and up on the rim. As I work my way into the canyon, the keening continues, echoing off the canyon walls. This sound overlays the thrum of water chuting through the beaver dams. Today water channels over the dams with unusual vigor, perhaps energized by snowmelt from the few storms the Abajo Mountains has managed to snag. I think, â€œWhen I listen to this water I hear math, scored and performed.â€ Meanwhile, from the east rim of the canyon, the eagle is doing â€¦ I donâ€™t know what. Saying I donâ€™t know what.
So much noise from a large predator puzzles me. I scan the cliffs and rim but canâ€™t spot the bird. The clamor stops for a few minutes then starts again, filling the canyon with long phrases of shrill notes. I sit above one of the dams and eat an apple and some trail mix, then stand to go. As I skirt the creek in the direction I intend to travel, I see itâ€”the eagle. Itâ€™s on the wing, flying east to west, heading off from me at an angle.
Suddenly, seeing me see it (I think), it changes course and flies to me directly. It spins five or six tight circles directly over my head then returns to its original course exactly and flies out of the canyon.
While it circled above, I studied its flight, how its body rocked between two comparatively still wings, all the while the tail dipping and rolling like an canoe paddle as the bird kept me at the eye of a circular field of vision.
January 24, 2007
On the way to the trail into ____________ this morning I was privileged to glimpse two coyotes. They stood at a distance in the treeline abutting the prairie dog town. Iâ€™m not sure how I saw them. Maybe I felt them watching me. I was walking along, head down, choosing my steps carefully through the stones in my way, when I suddenly swung up my head and to the left, focusing on the distant treeline, and I looked straight at them. They coyotes knew immediately my eyes had touched themâ€“they knew it before I did. One wheeled off into the PJ forest at a lope, seeking deeper cover. Only then did I understand what I was looking at, or rather that I was looking at something that had been watching me. Recognizing the doglike lope I put it together. After taking the risk of observing me longer, a second coyote, less perturbed than the other, trotted after its companion. Then I knew there were two.
March 17, 2007
Conversation overheard at local hardware store:
Guy #1: What are you gettinâ€™ ready to do?
Guy #2 (Tipping up a cooler for closer inspection): Iâ€™m gettinâ€™ ready to go play.
Guy #1: You goinâ€™ fishinâ€™?
Guy #2: Iâ€™m takinâ€™ my ATV and goinâ€™ to play.
Guy #1: You goinâ€™ fishinâ€™?
Guy #2: Naw, Iâ€™m just takinâ€™ my ATV out.
Guy #1: To do what?
Guy #2: Just to play.
Guy #1: I never take my ATV out â€œjust to play.â€ I take my ATV out, Iâ€™m skiddinâ€™ logs or haulinâ€™ rocks.