I think there’s something important to be said in response, but before I do let me clear out some underbrush: Kim Siever is not mediocre. Not being mediocre is no guarantee of blogging success. Everyone–some of the most surprising people–feel mediocre at times. On the other hand, it also must be said that most of us are mediocre in most things and all of us are mediocre in some things. God wills it. Perhaps he has no choice.
Now to the important thing. Kim Siever’s crie-de-couer received a surprising response: an outpouring of pleading, including my own. We all seemed to instinctively feel that leaving the bloggernacle was a tragedy. Now that I’ve had time to think, my response is different: good for you, Kim Siever. The bloggernacle is a trifle. Nearly everything in this world is, and the bloggernacle too.
We are always tempted to attach too much importance to these trifles. That temptation is particularly acute with the bloggernacle and the internet. It holds out the promise of a sort of fame, since everyone, world wide, can read what one has written. Worse, it holds out a false promise of immortality. Every quotidian conversation is preserved in our archives indefinitely. Searchers still find it and respond to it. We can review it at any time. It’s there, seemingly forever. The insufferable vanity we were born with can’t help but feel justified.
It shouldn’t. No accomplishment can justify us or stand the test of time.
No post, novel, poem or play.
No business, no building, no medal, no cure.
No preaching. No child.
No fame. No invention.
Nothing on the internet.
Not the internet itself.
Ourselves, our souls, alone will last. The Kim Siever that is now a-making is a Kim Siever against whose glory worlds would shatter. He is a Kim Siever fair as the sun, clear as the moon, as terrible as an army with banners, a Kim Siever of whom, if he alone of all of us met his potential, it could be said that in him was creation and Christ’s work justified.
Yes, we all seem to be mundane creatures. But read C.S. Lewis on the Weight of Glory. “There are no ordinary people. You have never talked to a mere mortal. Nations, cultures, arts, civilizations–these are mortal, and their life is to ours as the life of a gnat.”
Read the revelations.
“For since the beginning of the world have not men heard nor percieved by the ear, neither hath any eye seen, O God, besides thee, how great things thou hast prepared for him that waiteth for thee.”
“Ye cannot behold with your natural eyes, for the present time, the design of your God concerning those things which shall come hereafter, and the glory which shall follow after much tribulation.”
“And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new.”