Emma Caroline, Recently Come

February 11, 2004 | 14 comments
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Sara and I are pleased to announce the birth of a daughter. We have named her Emma Caroline. She weighs 9 pounds, 10 ounces, and is 22 and 1/4 inches long. She’s red and wrinkly.

Sara and I are on a high. We feel like we’ve gone back down to the wellsprings and been refreshed there. We feel like God has shown us a trust that is far beyond our merit, but remarkably, not beyond his plans for us. A daughter, our daughter . . . Who can say enough to the glory of God?

It must be a strain of melancholy in me that at this hopeful time I keep thinking of those parents whose children have died. Here is the story of a family, one of ours, whose three daughters died. I can’t bring myself to read it yet.
Here is another story, of another of our families, from William W. Slaughter, “The Strength of Sacrifice,” Ensign, Apr. 1997, 32. In many ways it was my lifeline to grace and perseverance (to Jesus, bluntly) for the last part of my mission:

A family residing in Tuba City, came here from Richfield, Utah where they spent the winter visiting friends. At Panguitch, they buried a child, and without disinfecting the wagon or themselves, not even stopping to wash the dead child’s clothes, they came to our house, and remained overnight, mingling with my little children, and the consequence was [diphtheria], in four days my oldest boy … was taken violently ill with fever and sore throat.

We knew nothing of the nature of the disease, but had faith in God, as we are here on a very hard mission, and had tried as hard as we knew how to obey the [commandments]. … But alas in 4 1/2 days he choked to death in my arms. Two more were taken down with the disease. … We fasted sometimes 24 hours and once I fasted 40 hours, but … both my little girls died also. About a week after their death my fifteen year old daughter Melinda was stricken down and we did all we could for her, but she followed the others … and the end is not yet. My oldest girl 19 years old is now prostrate with the disease and we are fasting and praying in her behalf today.

There are unseen influences around us that are trying to cause me to lose faith in God and to make me feel that there is no use to continue to pray. … You can imagine how I feel, as you know how I have tried to live, and the implicit faith I had in the gospel and the promises of God.

However … there are other spirits or influences around us that say to me, that God is the Father of the spirits of my children, and that He loves them as well as I do, and that he knows definitely better than I do what is best for them and us. God has said that ‘He would have a tried people in the last days,’ and those who desire to do right will have to pass through greater trials than those who are not trying to reach the highest glory. … I feel well when I look at it in the above light and especially when I think of the influences we have felt when my children died. It did not seem like death, and even when they were breathing their last, we could not feel bad, there was such a heavenly influence in the room. And also the looks of the children after death, almost a smile on their lips. … I know they are happy now, and I hope I shall not give way to the spirits of evil, but that I might live so that bye and bye I can go and dwell with [my children]. I can assure you, however, that it is the hardest trial of my life, but I set out for salvation and am determined that it is through the help of my Heavenly Father that I hold fast to the iron rod, no matter what troubles come upon me I have not yet slackened in the performance of any of my duties.

I read these things, then sit and think. I wonder what the use is of a blog in a world where there are children? I wonder what God has done to us.

And here is the story of a child who lived and a mother who died. I’m a sentimental wreck. Ah, Emma, you’re so small to have unmanned me.

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14 Responses to Emma Caroline, Recently Come

  1. Russell Arben Fox on February 11, 2004 at 11:34 pm

    Rejoice in your weakness, Adam. God gives life and beauty (and little girls) to ones such as us, because He loves us, but also to prove and stretch us all. Congratulations and all good things to you, Sara, and little Emma Caroline. I hope she and Allison can meet someday!

  2. Brent Andrewsen on February 11, 2004 at 11:47 pm

    Congratutlations Adam. That is wonderful! Hope all is well with you and yours.

  3. Gordon Smith on February 12, 2004 at 12:12 am

    Great news about Emma Caroline, Adam. Congratulations! If you think you are on an emotional roller-coaster, just imagine what your wife is going through! Best wishes for all.

  4. Adam Greenwood on February 12, 2004 at 12:23 am

    Thank you, all. It’s very true that the best way to a parent’s heart is congratulating them on their children. That’s true of us. We don’t mind, though. There’s room enough for all of you in here, now that God’s been doing some stretching.

  5. David H. Sundwall on February 12, 2004 at 1:15 am

    That’s wonderful news. All the best.

  6. Matt Evans on February 12, 2004 at 1:32 am

    Congratulations to you and your wife, Adam! And thanks for the beautiful post, emotional post. The birth of our first was an incredibly emotional experience. I couldn’t believe how *real* he looked, and kept wondering what I had thought he would look like. I was literally overwhelmed by his reality. It had been a long time since I’d heard these words, but they and their melody spoke to my awe:

    Who are these children coming down
    like gentle rain from darkened skies
    with glory trailing from their feet as they go
    and endless promise in their eyes

    Over and over I looked at my baby, holding him in bed with me (I slept at the hospital), trying to figure out who this incredibly real person in front of me *was*.

    Who are these children coming down?

  7. Greg Call on February 12, 2004 at 3:25 am

    Congratulations Adam, and as always, thanks for your eloquent words.

  8. Kristine on February 12, 2004 at 8:14 am

    Huzzah! Congratulations. (I will confess that I can’t even read the story of William Slaughter without being utterly undone, so I didn’t read much of your post.)

  9. Taylor on February 12, 2004 at 10:34 am

    Congrats! Great name!

  10. Nate Oman on February 12, 2004 at 12:14 pm

    Congratulations!

  11. Kaimi on February 12, 2004 at 12:29 pm

    Felicitations, Adam!

  12. lyle on February 12, 2004 at 12:33 pm

    Betsy has a little sister!!! a cute lil golden/reddish sister [think golden ticket song from willy wonka]. Congratz to her, Sarah and Adam. Your joy inspires me, reduces my pride and restores my hope to have a family someday.

  13. cooper on February 12, 2004 at 1:13 pm

    Felicitations Adam! A little girl. Nothing will undo you like a soft hearted little girl. (I have three)

    There is no joy that can be bought or sold to replace those feelings you’re having now. Imagine what Father in heaven must feel for each of us.

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

  14. sid on February 12, 2004 at 9:06 pm

    Congratulations!!!!!!

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